I’m finally feeling better, thank goodness. I was getting tired of lying around doing nothing all day. I just hope I don’t overdo it and send myself back to my sick bed.
It’s amazing how when you come out of an illness everything seems so crisp and clear and fresh. Almost like your mind is brand new and the world is all shiny and clean. Or maybe it’s like I’ve been wearing dirty glasses for a week and I’ve finally cleaned the lenses and suddenly all the trees have leaves again. Yes, that’s what getting better is like, for me at least.
Being sick has also put me in a reflective mood. I’ve been thinking about the summer so far and marveling at the fact that a year ago I would have been too scared to do most of the things that I’ve done this year. I never would have played with the band last summer. I never would have gone to the music festival. I wouldn’t have even started this blog, because I was too scared.
For most of the past six months I’ve been focusing on letting go of fear. I’ve been trying to find the girl I used to be. The girl who wasn’t afraid to look you in the eye and tell you what she really thought. I lost her for a while. Put her away in my sock drawer. And I’m finally starting to find her again. And a big part of that process has been writing in this blog. I’ve been learning to let go, to just write and hit publish and not worry about perfection anymore.
I want to thank those of you who have been reading this. Know that I really, truly appreciate your silent or not-so-silent support of this blog.
Thank you for Reading.
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